Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Just Do It

Happy Birthday to my incredible sister Becky and the savage hunter Uncle Boyd!!!

I don’t know how many of you read that last posting about the rain (there was a wicked rainstorm yesterday), but I hung out at the internet cafĂ© until I thought it was over and headed for home, only to find that I must have left right in the eye of the storm because the rain came back with a vengeance and I ended up sprinting home and getting drenched. I did stop for shelter at a market and had a pretty fun moment with a couple of other guys who were waiting out the storm…Ok, you know how when it pours the rainwater forms all these awesome little rivers? Well, I love those things. I like to toss a stick in to the water and watch it float away, or two sticks and race them. Well evidently these two men at the market were just as passionate about rainwater rivers because as we were standing there the flow of a particular river was great enough to dislodge a pretty sizeable board from the mud and start washing it away. They laughed and pointed at it and even though we couldn’t understand each others language, we shared a look of complete understanding and enthusiasm. It’s pretty sweet how God spoils us sometimes.

Along with the rain came a day of being stuck inside. Which, really was ok because I wasn’t feeling well anyways, last night I had a fever of 100.4.That may or may not have been an accurate reading because I’d just eaten some hot, delicious porridge. At any rate, I feel fine today. But NOT being able to do anything sort of made me stress about doing nothing. That’s kind of something I’ve been struggling with is dealing with what I think is too much down time, and putting a lot of pressure on myself to be doing huge monumental things to serve the people here every second of every day. I’m only here for 2 more months, so I want to make sure I’m doing all that I can. I just gotta be careful not to overthink things. Sure, it would be amazing if I could snap my fingers and provide everything that these families need in an instant. But that’s God’s job. And it’s not like these women are expecting that of me. Yes, these families are poor financially. But they are more generous and supportive of one another with what they have than a lot of people back in America (I’m not pointing any fingers, because historically, I’d probably fit the characteristics of a greedy American more than a generous Suubi woman. And I was blown away by the financial and moral support I got [and continue to get] from you phenomenal people, so don’t think I’m scolding you either. I’m just pointing out that it seems like Americans are raised with the mindset that what’s ours is OURS, we earned it. Why should we share it? Well, because it all comes from God and we should love out neighbors as ourselves, that’s why.)

Back to what I was saying before. I need to stop putting tremendous pressure on myself to do great things, and just start doing what I can with great amounts of love. Because what I think is average and unimportant might mean a great deal to someone else. (Like I said before, just playing with kids all day. But kids are easy, they love anything you do with them. I’m REALLY praying for things I can do to serve the adults around here. You can too if you get the chance)……..

I’ll wrap this up with a little update of whats been going on around here. Last Friday me, Julie, and 2 other non-Suubi (but equally as cool) volunteers, Josh and Ian, went to a nearby village to feed some hungry kids. The meal consisted of beans, chipote (like a thick flour tortilla), and some fruit. We ended up feeding around 400 kids, which was SO AWESOME. The whole process got a little crazy because there were so many kids all trying to get to the front of the line. My “job” was to maintain order and watch for bigger kids shoving the little ones out of line, or cutting ahead, or eating their food and jumping back in line for seconds, or just straight up stealing other kids’ food. Thankfully I had some help with a few of the village women, and Josh, Ian, and Julie had done this before so they were pretty good at catching the sneaky ones. I was super nervous that the food was going to run out and someone would go hungry so I was praying pretty much nonstop. When all was said and done, everyone got their meal! There was even a bit left over that was given to the women who had prepared the food. Josh is the one who organized the thing, which consists of us pooling our money, buying the food, paying some people to prepare it, and us handing it out. I’m pretty sure it’s going to be a weekly thing, and I’m blessed that I get to be a part of it. I mean, feeding hungry kids in Africa! How sweet is that? God rocks so hard.

On Saturday I took an awesome walk with Betty down to Lake Victoria to buy a bag of charcoal for her cookstove. For those of you who don’t know who Betty is, she’s an employee at the house here who does chores, laundry etc. She’s an amazing woman, an outstanding mother to an adorable son, Kimby, a spectacular Christian, and a hilarious, energetic friend. A complete joy to be around. The walk was absolutely beautiful with an abundance of lush green trees and bright flowers, and the weather was perfect, like 75 degrees. Basically it made me a little bummed that I’ve been taking so many piki rides, and not walking more(which I will be doing now. Even though that means getting rained on sometimes). The lakeside market/village was awesome too. Very scenic and had that seaside feel to it, with tons of fishing boats, and people repairing fishing nets. It was just very different that the other villages that I’d been to, which was really interesting to experience. Plus, I love being near lakes and rivers.

Even if they’re just little rainwater rivers.


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Monday, August 25, 2008

just a quick one...

hey everyone, this isn't an actual blog just a random thought.
i'm sitting in this internet cafe, it's absolutely pouring outside and i can't stop replaying the song "Africa" by Toto in my head ("i bless the rains down in africa") if you haven't heard it, it's absolutely necessary that you listen to it soon.
that's all. i'll write an actual blog tonight and post it tomorrow.
love, john

Monday, August 18, 2008

Concerning Ugandan children

I gotta be careful because I’m starting to develop a sense of celebrity. (don’t think me vain, I know I don’t deserve any of it, and it’s not like I’m looking for any special treatment or signing autographs) It’s just really hard not to when I can make a group of kids erupt into fits of uncontrollable laughter with only a smile and a wave. And there is no shortage of Ugandan children seeking attention from us “Mzungus”. They hear our van coming and they come out in droves, waving and shouting. It’s addicting. And I have to control myself because if I’m not careful my entire time here will be spent on a soccer field surrounded by 100 laughing adorable kids.

Seriously, nothing is quite like the smile and laughter of a Ugandan child. A kid who’s been wearing the same clothes for, who knows how long- a week, maybe two. Who’s had nothing to eat but some rice and cabbage or some beans.

And these kids have energy to burn! I don’t know where they get it all. It’s so beautifully exhausting to spend a few hours with these kids, to have them hanging on your every mispronounced Lugandan word and hanging on your arms. And if you really wanna get them going just introduce a soccer ball into the equation. I don’t even know the specific rules of the game, but I play. And that’s whats important. (I really have to learn now because one of the Suubi ladies son who’s 23 asked me to play with the men. And they’re amazing) Most of the time the kids just want to be near you, or to touch your skin. Or for you to act like a lion and chase them around all day long. It never gets old.

The other day they asked me to take off my socks so they could see my feet. I did, and it was like I’d just lit off some fireworks or something, they were totally amazed. I know they’ve seen white feet before, mine are just probably the whitest. I mean what do you do with that? I almost started to cry because I just couldn’t comprehend their joy…I think maybe that’s where I run into trouble here, trying to make sense of happiness. I have to stop thoughts like “How can they be so freakin’ happy? They live in a shack and they don’t have any shoes”. If I let them, thoughts like that will completely ruin my time here, because it’s impossible for me to carry each of these families out of poverty. It really is. (that’s not to say we shouldn’t try like crazy, because God does provide and miracles are real) And I’m not gonna waste my time feeling guilty about that, because that’ll drive me crazy too. What it boils down to is just doing what Christ wants us all to do, and when you come to that realization it’s unbelievably simple. Just love one another. That’s another fact that just completely blows my mind! The love that I’m giving these kids is the love of Jesus in me, and I’m just passing it along. It’s literally me sitting there acting on Jesus’ behalf. I mean, come on, can I really be this blessed?! I gotta stop myself from crying in moments of realization like that for two reasons. One, I’d probably never stop crying. And two, I’d freak these kids out. But it’s the best feeling I’ve ever known to be right where God wants me to be, doing exactly what He wants me to do. Even if it is just showing off my ridiculously white skin, which up until now has been kind of a running joke, and a little embarrassing at times. But if I can use my whiteness as a tool to show God’s love then, hey, I hope I never get a tan. GOD IS SO GOOD.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Directionally Challenged American gets lost in Ugandan village, Finds Hope

I have been so blessed with so many gifts in my life time. Sense of direction just isn’t one of them. Sorry, Dad. I know you tried.

That being said, my first solo trip to one of the villages (Danita) had the potential to end in disaster. The funny thing is that as I was riding over there I was telling myself “No problem, Johnny boy. You got this” Like I could conjure up some sense of direction by sheer power of will. And when I got there (mind you, I’d been there probably 10 times previously) I didn’t recognize anything. So I told my piki driver to just drop me off and I’d walk around until I saw something familiar. After a million funny looks that said “this pale kid has no clue where he is,” one kid took mercy on me and sorta walked up and said hi. I told him I was looking for the Suubi place-the building we meet the women to buy necklaces, have crazy-awesome fellowship, and conduct English and Literacy classes. The boy mildly understood what I was talking about and said “the place where they bring the motorcar?”. That was it! He took me there, so at least I was positive that I was in a place I’d been before. My next problem was trying to find an actual Suubi woman’s home, which meant I was back to my aimless wandering. In my defense, most of the shacks and buildings look pretty similar. I’m not a total loss, it just takes me a while.

After about 20 minutes, I was ready to give up and flagged a piki driver to take me back home. I jumped on and we took off, feeling discouraged and frustrated when my angel of hope ,Agnes, appeared on her front stoop! I told the driver that I’d changed my mind (which was a bit of a challenge in and of itself, and I ended up giving him 500 shillings for his troubles…)

From there on (and after a happy greeting from Agnes and her family) I got the grand tour of Danita, with stops at every Suubi womans house along the way. Agnes and the other women had a few laughs watching me trying to memorize landmarks, and we drew a few glances from the rest of the neighborhood as we were being followed by about 30 of the Danita children (the kids are gonna get a blog all to themselves, trust me they’re worth it). And the trip ended back at Agnes’ place for a little impromptu game of handball with a few of her relatives. A total success.

Next up- the village of Walukubu. Pray for me, people! PRAY HARD!

God bless you all as he’s blessed me!

Monday, August 11, 2008

a new hope

it’s funny, when i was preparing for my trip here to Uganda i never let myself get too excited, or too scared or nervous. i was just ready. i didn’t know exactly what to expect, i just wanted to be here and doing whatever was in store for me. and now i know that i was right to not allow myself that excitement because if i knew then how amazing it is here i wouldn’t have been able to function properly with all that anticipation.

it’s that good.

and i’m really gonna struggle here to put into words how utterly incredible the women of Suubi really are. i got my first chance to meet them all at once yesterday during the Sunday meeting. the energy in that small room was overwhelming! they were just so happy and appreciative to be with one another, and SO thankful for Light Gives Heat, and our time here as volunteers (they told us again and again-AWESOME!) i’m getting really spoiled here by all this love i’m getting from the people! kinda hard to keep up with them, but i’m doing my best to pay it back. maybe this is clichĂ© but it’s just unrealistically humbling to be shown such a welcome and so much appreciation…and to see such joy and hope in people who are living in pretty prominent poverty. again, i struggle to describe what it feels like. just get here and you’ll see. and maybe that’s how this will work-i’m gonna get so filled up with this love that it’s just gonna come pouring back out onto everyone i meet. at least i hope for that, and hope is what this is all about…
thanks for reading this and being a part of it all…